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First I wanted to slap Urie for that, but then I got the feeling that they’re both just very hurt and are still unable to communicate properly, because of that. They weren’t even facing each other when talking, whcih shows that they can’t be honest with each other. I’ve already talked about why Urie keeps putting his job first, but I’m starting to think there’s a lot more to it than just his father and Shirazu, more specifically the fact that he straight up got rejected by Mutsuki in chapter 126. Urie before this had no idea that Mutsuki was in love with Sasaki and probably deep down thought that he had a chance. It’s no coincidence that he was salty about Kuroiwa getting married before him and then he was rejected at his wedding by his own love interest. This one line in particular from the omake caught my eye:

He doesn’t think he can or deserves to have to have a family and Mutsuki basically confirmed that for him. He looked dead inside for a reason after Mutsuki confessed their love for Sasaki and after that scene we haven’t really seen him act the same when it comes to Mutsuki. I think he’s given up on his love and is trying to suppress his emotions by focusing on his job which is why he can’t be honest about his feelings. When Mutsuki was kidnapped by Torso, Urie was very obviously concerned, but when they disappeared in 24th ward raid we didn’t get to see what Urie was thinking. When they got reunited he only treated Mutsuki like a member of his squad and couldn’t show his love openly like Saiko did. 

Akira and Urie are still parallels and this is a trait they both share. The scene where they stopped Mutsuki had a lot of parallels to the fight scene with Akira/Takizawa/Amon/Qs in Rushima [x] and there Akira was suppressing her emotions so hard that she was ready to kill Takizawa, because of her job even if she truly loved him and was ready to sacrifice her own life for his sake in the end. While Urie was trying to save Mutsuki instead of killing them in the name of CCG, his approach to the situation was very cold as Akira’s was. He didn’t even act like he was Mutsuki’s friend or family like Saiko, but just their squad leader. I still think Urie will have a scene similar to what Akira had in that arc where he has to choose Mutsuki over his job, but until then he is going to continue acting like this. His father and Shirazu’s influence combined with Mutsuki’s rejection makes a very nasty combination that makes him continue prioritizing his job and think that that is his way to find happiness. In this latest chapter he really seemed to be distancing himself from Mutsuki.

This ship hurts me so much, why do they both have to have so many issues that prevent them from communicating with each other? Like I just want one scene where Urie is able to open up, stop suppressing his emotions and tell Mutsuki how he truly feels even if he doesn’t get anything in return from them. I think I’ve been expecting too much from Urie lately by thinking he’ll save Mutsuki, because Urie needs as much help from Mutsuki as Mutsuki needs from Urie. With Urie I still feel like he’ll have to choose Mutsuki over CCG and tell them how he truly feels, but I think in that situation the act is more important than what he has to say. I’m convinced that Mutsuki already knows how troubled Urie is and they also probably know about his feelings for them. For example Mutsuki knew that Urie wasn’t being honest when he was talking about being a responsible squad leader.

The mutsurie fandom always seems to focus mostly on Urie when it comes to the hug scene back in chapter 29, but that scene was rather important for Mutsuki too, because they found out about Urie’s biggest flaw in it. It was even specifically mentioned in the re:Quest novel:

“The smell of oil paint would ooze from Urie’s room and even from Urie himself, and Shirazu and Saiko would often call him stinky without a moment’s hesitation. But to Mutsuki, it felt like that familiar scent exuded Urie, exuded his coldness and prickliness. Was he thinking that way because he had experienced Urie’s solitude during the Auction Operation?”

I’m pretty certain Mutsuki knows Urie is a lonely person that is just working hard at their job, because they think they don’t have anything else. In this chapter they just wanted to talk and explain what’s been going on, but Urie ignores them, because job™ and Mutsuki looks rather sad. 

I’m also almost certain that Mutsuki knows that Urie loves them romantically, because they seem to very sensitive to that sort of thing. When they first met Torso they recognized the way he was staring at a woman and was uncomfortable, because of men’s stares when they dressed up as a woman and went to the nightclub. They also immediately realized that Sasaki was in love with Touka after he just stared at her once. Afterwards they became jealous.

I don’t think that “coats are nice, I guess” scene was there just for the sake of a joke. It just proved that if Urie has been admiring Mutsuki’s beauty so blatantly like that then Mutsuki has probably noticed that he’s into them. I think the reason they confessed their love for Sasaki in chapter 126 was, because they wanted to tell Urie to give up on them and move on, because they were going on a kamikaze mission for Sasaki. It’s just kind of funny how they both were lonely people who just wanted to be loved in that scene, the tragic conga line of love got in the way of everyone’s happiness.

Anyway, before this I’ve only really been focusing on how Urie could help Mutsuki, but I don’t really know what kind of future this ship would have if it was just a one way street of Urie doing stuff for Mutsuki’s sake. Mutsuki seems to be aware of Urie’s issues to a certain extent so I want them both to make a move to bridge the gap of communication issues. With Urie that probably is picking Mutsuki over CCG and speaking up, but for now I don’t really know what Mutsuki could do. Whatever happens I think they both have to make an effort, Urie just going up to Mutsuki and confessing isn’t enough.