Étiquette : tg:re89

i am so pissed off. This chapter make me feel so angry. All the events, with Seidou betraying Tatara and killing him, just to save his partners. And Houji and Akira ordering to kill him. This point i understand. But why kill? They could try talk with him, could try just calm him down. If Taki had the chance to talk about himself, what he passed, what Kanou did to him, what the Aogiri did and will do. All the secrets. He could so much help them. Argh! I have so much thing to say, but the words…

harostar:

ladymoonstache-deactivated20170:

It’s frustrating, really! I understand you and I also feel the same because Takizawa is a character I’ve loved ever since he appeared in TG. I don’t want him to die! :’’’’( 

But let’s look from Akira and Houji’s point of view: both of them also love Takizawa and both of them want to save him but that doesn’t change the fact that he’s killed a lot of investigators and did many things against the CCG.

It’s a very complicated situation because for them it’s basically: their job as investigators (exterminating ghouls that are a threat for the lives of humans) VS. their personal feelings for Takizawa (Akira considers him a dear friend and was devastated when she thought he died while, on the other hand, Houji admires him as his student). 

I just read the chapter and to be honest, I still don’t know what to think either. But it’s hard

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or pretty much impossible

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to determine who’s wrong and who’s right here. Akira and Houji are doing this because of their responsibilities as investigators but I’m sure in their hearts, they don’t really want to do it because they do care about Seidou. And poor Seidou… he doesn’t realize this and thinks they really do hate him. 

I don’t know, anon, I don’t know. All I can say is that the whole situation is very sad because Akira and Houji chose to do something they don’t want to and the decision probably hurt them a lot; and Seidou feels like he’s been betrayed by the people he wanted to protect. It’s sad, so sad. *cries forever*

I’ve said it before, but I think another factor is in what Akira said to him.

They didn’t want him to be culled.

Houji and Akira know what the CCG does to ghouls. They know ghouls in Cochlea are tortured, experimented on, and used for Quinque materials. They know there’s already a planned Purge, as Aogiri-associated ghouls are no longer useful.

Takizawa’s only value to the organization, because of his power and past killings, is as a test subject. Something to chop up, and study, and use for Quinques.

The CCG has ordered Owl terminated. There is no happy “Haise” option for him, because the Washuus will not permit it. Akira and Houji know Takizawa isn’t going to be given a chance. So now their choices are try to put him down as quickly and painlessly as possible……or leave him to potentionally be hurt and violated even more.

It will hopefully make Akira think twice, realizing the horrors the CCG commits now that it’s aimed at people she loves.

In your opinion how conscious do you think Seidou is?

senju-swag:

After ch 89, I feel like we have really seen the depths of Seidou’s character and what he’s become. It’s always been his goal, even since TG, to be strong, to be capable, he wants to save people. In his testament he writes in TG, he talks about how his neighbor was killed by ghouls and how he wants to protect his family. He’s always wanted to save people. 

This want and drive has been twisted in :re. In this chapter we can see this desperate hero complex coming through, and the consequences of that complex. When Takizawa was still human, he was plagued with doubts and showed Houji and Amon admiration and respect and aspired to be like them. Now, he feels powerful for the first time in his life. He thinks he’s better than them. That’s why he killed Houji. That’s why he is going to try to kill Amon, I believe. He killed all of the CCG troops around Akira. In my opinion, it’s this kind of gorey love letter to her: “Look at what I’ve done, look at what I am capable of, do you see me now, you’re looking at me now, I’m not looking at you from the side anymore, here we are face to face and you’re at my mercy” 

He’s conscious, but he’s under a complete delusion of his own grandeur. This is why I believe he’s beyond redemption. Now having Akira and Amon’s reunion right in front of him, he’s going to go back to that place of inferiority, that place of only seeing Akira from the side. She refused to acknowledge him like he wanted, Amon is not going to “roll over and die” like Seidou said about Houji. Seidou isn’t going to be able to control this situation and that is going to be a breaking point. 

harostar:

So once again, we see someone’s ambitions cut short. Tatara spent his life consumed with hatred, wanting revenge against Houji……and that very desire for revenge ended up destroying him without getting what he wanted. 

He maimed Takizawa and gave him over to Kanou as revenge against Houji. And after years within Aogiri, gaining power and becoming stronger, and seemingly making himself important to the higher ups……Takizawa turns on him and takes his own revenge. 

But in a way, Tatara did still end up getting revenge through his proxy. Takizawa’s twisted fantasy of becoming a hero was harshly ended by reality, and he lashed out when rejected. It seems he’s killed Houji in his rage, ending both sides of that rivalry with no one getting what they had hoped for. And isn’t that a crueler fate in the end, that Houji dies at the hands of his former subordinate? D:

And it really goes to show just how broken Takizawa is, mentally. That he seemed to honestly believe all he had to do was eventually turn on Tatara, and he would get a hero’s welcome back into the CCG. As though killing and eating comrades would just be forgotten or forgiven, and they would embrace him without hesitation. It’s pretty clear that no one else mattered to him, and he really just wanted to impress the two important people in his life. He wanted Houji to praise him, and Akira to see him as someone strong. Perhaps clinging to that thought kept him going, through everything that he endured in being shaped into Owl. 

Instead, he got the harsh reality that his actions had consequences. That because of what he is and what he’s done, the people he cared about no longer see him as anything but a mad dog to be mercy killed. So he does the only thing he’s capable of doing at this point, which is lashing out and using his strength to hurt others. In spite of all his power, he’s still that insecure boy that desperately wants to be praised and cannot handle rejection or disappointment. 

bloodycarnations:

Seidou is really crushing my heart in this chapter…
He went against the organization that gave him power
He killed the only person who treated him like a valuable and strong associate
He did it because he thought that this way he could finally be seen as a hero by the people he thought he had forgotten because ‘ghouls can’t care about people’
He did it because he wanted for Houji to admire him, to look at him with pride
He did it because he wanted for Akira to be on his side, he who’s always denied any attachment and any romantic feelings for her, wanted her recognition.
He did it because he wanted to prove himself he was worth that praise

Gosh, I am crying too, my son
Why can’t you just love yourself

(I’m dead inside too)

This post is completely on point and to make things even harder for my feels I can’t help but wonder if Seidou started to realize that he wanted Akira to be on his side and for her to “see him being heroic” after the auction arc, when he felt ashamed at the thought that she saw her as a OEG covered in blood.

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At least no one can doubt that he planned ahead and waited for a good opportunity to kill Tatara, it was definitely premeditated. 

But you know the worst gotta be this…

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because if he believes he only ever saw her face from the side, that probably means he thinks she never really looked at him [x], so after she saw him as a terrifying OEG during the auction arc Seidou wanted to really show Akira that he could be a hero in her eyes… 

Seidou: I really came to save you all… And yet…
Seidou: I was his subordinate… And him trying to kill me… Unforgivable.
Seidou: If Houji-san was there on that day, this probably would’ve never happened.
Seidou: I… I also wanted you to see it.

And… *sobs* the conclusion to all this is just so very very sad (and Amon’s arrival is just plain painful as well, considering he and Seidou are probably enemies now ;_;)

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